I Am Willing To Follow The Compelling Pull Of My Divine Self
There has always been an urge within me to create
To write plays
To write poems
To write songs
To write stories
To sing the songs I create
To learn how to use my voice effectively
To create music
To put words together and stir other people
To teach what I learn
To read and discover more things and then to pass them on to others
To see others light up as they realise something new
If I had to reduce my life to 4 words, I would say that all I want to do is sing, speak, write and invite
That is the pull of my heart
It never seemed reasonable
It never seemed sensible
And so I put it all off
I gave up childish dreams and pursued a ‘real’ life of being a responsible adult
I drowned out my need to create with too many church services
And too much chocolate and sometimes, too much TV/movies
Yep that was as interesting as I got as I was too nervous to get drunk or take drugs or sleep with random peeps to drown out the emptiness, religion was my biggest drug of choice
I told myself that I did not have enough words
That what I had to produce was too simple
Who needed what I had, anyway?
I just needed to get along and be reasonable
I needed to stop pretending to be different and just go along with the flow
Deep down, I sought to avoid the darkest questions
“What if I try and fail?”
“What if no one actually does care?”
And I suppose I had to truly face up to the fact that I could not be my true divine creative self for anyone else, I did it for me and for my own fulfilment…
And that too seemed somewhat selfish, pretentious… and scary.
How dare I think that I was that important?
How dare I believe that I had something of import to leave as a legacy?
And then mixed in with all that, is the need to take care of family
How dare I get off the well-trodden path and find my own way, when I had a sure thing in pharmacy?
All questions I had to face and answer…
And in the end, I chose me.
I CHOSE ALL OF ME!
I CHOSE TO MAKE IT WORK!
Not because it was the most practical thing to do
But because I wanted to.
I truly believe that we are moving swiftly away from a world where any of us will be able to avoid these questions
We are moving swiftly towards a world where only those who honour their creativity and intuition will win
It is not enough to pretend that you are simply a machine that can churn out whatever for whoever pays the most
You are a divine being and deep down, you seek full expression, hence the emptiness that you feel when you dare to be silent for even a second.
Most fill their time with distractions while at the same time, telling themselves that they have no time to be their true selves
Well, I guess you can do that if you want to die with your music in you
We are all creative beings
There is something inside of you that you desire to express
There is something inside of you that will support the world in its evolution
It may seem silly and simple to you because you have lived with your ideas for ever and familiarity breeds contempt
And unfortunately, we have been taught that unless it is revered by other people then it is useless
Your creative value is not actually dependent on anyone else
It is yours to express however you choose to
And yes, you can find a way to prosper financially while doing it… if you are willing to.
(Please realise that those are 2 different things though we have been taught to believe they are one and the same — ‘only do something if you can see EXACTLY how it will make you money’ is the rule of the regular world. And yet, we see in this current world that people are somehow creating abundance despite doing the most random seeming things but they had to be willing to go against the status quo and choose to do those things FIRST and then finally the money came)
There is so much more I want to say about all of this…
But firstly, are you willing to follow the call of your divine creative self?
Are you willing to believe that you would not be left to go destitute when you follow this call?
Because really, all you need is to be willing
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Much Amazing Love
Rosemary Nonny Knight
The Prosperity Minister